A good parent?

After almost a month off from seeing the kiddo, due to a vacation and him having other things going on during the weekends, i had the pleasure of having him this weekend, i would like to think im a good parent, he mentioned all week he couldn't wait to come over here friday afternoon and that made me feel special, knowing what he's been through in the last 5 years, his foster parents are doing a wonderful job knowing how young they are, but i do disagree on a lot of the things they buy for him and the music they let him listen too, he has a gigantic face diamond earing (he's 10) and talked about getting more piercings cause his friends wanted them too!...NO, he mentioned i had them as well, but i explained to him i made the right decision and waited till i was 18 to subject needles being poked through my skin for piercings, and waited till i was 29 or 30 to have my first tattoo and had to remind him he's 10 and needs to focus on being a kid and school, not what's trendy at the moment, it's tough for him knowing he doesn't have a mom, well...he does, she just signed her rights away. The court system has been very tough on me the last two years even though i didn't do anything wrong, but i'm glad to know i have a son who believes in me and loves me, if anyone wants the full story of what i'm talking about i'd be happy to share it at a different time, anyway's...this weekend has been filled with food i didn't need, little excercise and more food, although the kid brought over his entire halloween candy back, i didn't eat any of it, and so far i have not eaten any Halloween candy yet this year!....Another things about kids these days is video games, i don't get it, i like to play a few games here and there, but kids these days are addicted like crack, when i picked him up on Friday, almost the whole ride home was him talking about games and how he can get better at them if he just practices, my response was you'll do better at school and life if you practice at that 100%, i've been debating on and off the last month of just hiding the xbox, next time i will be doing that...or just get rid of it cause i don't use it unless it for netflix, so...i'd like to think im a good parent, and im still learing, i guess one is always learning to be a parent, it doesn't get easier...Until next time!

Things will change right?

So, this being my first ever blog post....please forgive me for error's and such, lately i've been second guessing my return to my old job, but i honestly have no choice until i find other work, i've been working with food on and off since i've started working at age 14, i have no professional expierence...i would like some and I've gained better qualities at the place I'm at now and have learned a lot from the other chefs and the sous chef, but not the head chef and i choose not to blog about him. It's really tough being in a workplace where you never get a thank you, or good job...all you get is "you need to make sure you have all this done, on top of having everything done for this, and that, and for the next day" working long hours takes a toll on relationships and friendships, i feel as though the few people i get along with at work are family...i'd much rather have a 8-4 job and have a life....it's a known fact that being a chef in a high end place, you will work long hours and the majority of the people are single....I don't wanna be single, i wanna build on my relationship with my wonderful girlfriend. I think some of you may not know how we actually met, we were internet friends over 10 years ago on "IRC " she had a huge crush on me, i wasn't fully aware of this...She claimed i was to cool for her, i still to this day deny that fact that i was cool at all...we went are separate way's and led our own lives and came across one another on Facebook due to a dear friend who has now past, and we got together and hung out at Dave & Buster's then to go see old friends i haven't seen in 10 years as well, and all it took was one night and we were hooked on each other, anyways....i'll stop babbling about that

I don't wanna go to nuts on my first post, but things will change right?..I don't wanna be surrounded by negative energy anymore, i told Corryn Saturdary night, i feel at home while hanging out with the members of the #f2fpack, it's all positive and that's what i need, i don't do good with negative as most of you know, negative energy makes me just wanna sit and stare at the wall, turn on the tv, eat bad foods and get involved in negative energy and go along with it, yes...i'm shy and nervous around new people, but for those who know me and have just met me, i warm up quickly and i feel that this is the best way for me to get things out and blow off a lil steam and hope to have a lil positive energy as i prepare for the turkey day 5k...Thank you for reading my first ever and certainly not my last blog post...